11. Yep, it's true. Today marks 11 months on the waitlist for a 4-5 year old boy. Who knew? I will say that this has been quite a journey for us! On one side, I just "assumed" that this adoption would be FAST!! I mean, not many people request a little boy. But, deep down, since before we even sent in our paperwork to Gladney, I had a feeling that this would be a tough road to travel. I don't know why-- just a feeling I had.
From the beginning, we knew this was going to be God's story that He's telling. But, it's been tough and I've definitely found myself on my knees crying out, "why?" "What's taking so long?" My momma arms feel empty! My heart has broken over and over. And, I've definitely had some not so graceful moments in this wait that I'm not too terribly proud of. But, even through some of my toughest moments, I have felt a deep peace about this journey. I know God has our boy and He's getting him ready. Back in August, when we had surpassed any type of estimated wait time, I called our case worker and we talked. She was able to get some info for me and give me a little insight in to what's been going on with our case. Though the news was a bit shocking-- again, I just felt such a strong presence of God's hand working in all of this. At that point, we had lost 5 potential matches and the in-country staff was currently working on match #6!! It's hard to explain, because so many around us were confused, frustrated, and upset for us-- and don't get me wrong-- so was I-- but, the peace was still there. I knew God was working and obviously our timing was not aligning with His timing and He was working the kinks out so His perfect boy for us would be ready in His perfect timing!
(this is NOT the norm with Gladney, and I think all of the matches have fallen through on the orphanages' end, not on Gladney's end!)
So, here we are at 11 months. Though I wish my boy was upstairs, tucked in bed right now with his sister and brother.... I will choose to wait-- with the Lord's strength, gracefully-- until His perfect timing is revealed.
**We are on to match number 7. Lucky number 7?? I sure hope! :)